I know i have no been around

 But here I am newly Wed and now the manager of Of the MasterCuts i Started working at 5 months ago, I love the new changes in my life. With all the new changes going on i think i will be writing everyday again just to let you guys know whats going on. I have something going on everyday but for starters i'll show you a pictures of my wedding. Us during the Toast laughing our butts off from something.I love how my new life turned out to be I found someone i can be myself with, communicate without fear. I love you Carlos Uscanga

Long past due

I don't know where to begin what has  changed since i last posted in my blog. In the last 4ish months i Have broken up with my ex bf moved to Jacksonville NC, then turned about and moved to Charleston after spending what felt and eternity of self loathing and sadness of what could have been different. I woke up one morning pulled myself together and began to look for a job. To begin a new life with new changing including loving myself enough to think maybe i may love someone in the future the way they deserve. In this changing realization i found what i had either lost or never really knew.But i cant tell you with great joy in changing myself i found my hearts true love and i wouldn't have guessed that i would be so blessed.

So to celebrating a new chapter in my life i will begin my blog again
 For starters I have been working at MasterCuts for the last 2 months and been living in Charleston,SC for the last 3 Months. Since i been here i have met my inner Mexican and learned to be on my own again. I'm more then happy to know that i'm self relying on myself to move forward. Not to say that it's been easy unfortunately I was involved in and accident and that's another stressed out story in it self. After being here for a little while I had the some good luck and i met a guy and amazing guy who literally swept me off my feet. Sometimes my blog maybe gushy and lovey but i promise i'll add some cool make- up and hair stuff to and if you become one of my usual readers again thanks i hope to hear comments from you ........oh by the way his names Carlos....wish me luck on my new life.......

The World keeps turning Even when yours Stops

                                  I know I recently haven't had time to blog and let you know whats on in my life thee days. I have had so much happened in last month. From photo shoots, and working two jobs. I completely feel over worked and overwhelmed. Not because i work two jobs just the lack in connection with people in my life. But I recently made some changes in my life that will be making drastic changes in my life. First I broke things off with my boyfriend after 4 years. I'm moving to South Carolina  to spend some time with my mom for about 2 months,and so that I can save some cash. After that I will be moving back to Sunny Cali-forni-A.

 I miss home a lot 

 I haven't been decided if i want to move to LA or back to San Diego. The first month of May I do have a trip planned for LA. While I visit I will be applying to as many Salons as possible hoping to snag a job. So pray for me. If I get a phone call back will be amazing. So keep and eyes out for new adventures cause I'm just going to live forward focus and full throttle.

BROKEN LOVE

I know I been MIA lately but i have good reason and this time in my life i feel alone and in a very confused place i'm angry, hurt, and most of all dissapointed in the reactions of all that come up
Below is a very open ended statement of my world it's a poem. its been a few years since i've written so please be nice






.I know i'm not perfect and have more then just my share of faults. But i lived up to them, and I attempted to move on from past mistakes. but in reality it was never enough. Everything time a smile lit my face it washed away because i knew it meant it would just be for a second. Every since I made that mistake I know everything would change and can never be the same. but I hope and dreamed someday we would forget and think about what the future held and 3 years later i'm still just the girlfriend. I couldn't do it anymore the wondering what if. what if I walked away then and just said thee end if I would have said no their is no turning back from this. But cried and still loved and wanted to try again. You said you forgave me but that wasnt the case. Inside and Out I felt the differance and time made it worst. So at times I feel lonely and sad just wishing you can look at me with all the LOVE you had when we first met. I made a choice to move on this time theres not debate about what happens next i'm scared and hurt that even still it hasent kicked you yet the yurning and hurt and all you want is to kiss that emotion inside that says I cant live with out you you by my side. I know I am broken and you tried to pick up the pieces and make them whole, but i'm broken inside and need to find all the parts of my soul. please Understand i'm dying inside, i'm terrified and you couldnt fix the mess that other people damage you seem blinded to the pain I held inside.I love you I do but i'm to confused to really be the one for you

Vegas Bound

 As some of you all know I was away these last few days in Las Vegas for a Paul Mitchell Caper event for student to get the opportunity to meet and work with all the big wigs of Paul Mitchell. No i'm not a student but I did win the Trip before I graduated.Our trip started on a very early 4:30 mmet at the airport. We landed in Las Vegas with prestige Limos to pick us up.

 Tekashi and me

 Bananas, Rachel, and me

 Magic Johnson

 My outfit for the white party

 Ashley,me,and Courtney

 Me and Grandma at the MESA

 Me and my mentor Terra

Robert Cromeans I will work in one of his Salons one day

 We stayed at the Ceasers Palace which was really nice.The first day we arrived we had to ourselves to wonder and do our own thing. Because Las Vegas is so close to my home state California. My grandmother was able to meet me and spend time with her. We gambled and had breakfast/lunch at the chinese resturuant in the hotel. The following day was general session where we got to see motivational speakers and public figures that run chairty foundations we met Magic Johnsone, Marie from donnie and marie, comedian and motivational speaker Kathey Buckley.etc After that we had the white party where we were able to take pictures with all the big wigs of the paul mitchell design team. I got to meet and learn so many things from my mentors and what we call out rockstars in our industry. Robert Lobetta was there look him up he's a genius. The last day we had classes all day and a final show i cant begin to explain the hairshows that took place but i hope the pictures tell and show you enought thanks for stopping by.

It's been a while

Good morning, Oh how i miss blogging I have been so busy I haven't had a moment to myself. This week I started my training for Supercuts needless to say it's already fustrated, but thats how I am if I dont get it the first time I get angry. So today is Valentines and hope everyone has a really good one some men dont know romance, but lets just hope they get it today. My trip to Las Vegas is next week I'm pretty excited about it. When I was in cosmotolgy school I won a trip to a event called Caper. It is a Paul Mitchell gathering for stufdents. I'm not a student anymore but i attended school during. So I have to say I was lucky. The last day of training the event has a  All White party. I'm looking forward to that so I went shopping online for a dress and found one I loved. Except when I got it, it was a smig to small. It wouldn't zip the last inch I was so sad with the party 11 days away so I did what any women would do DIET, but this time I took a who new approuch, I cut out Carbs,sugar and salt you would think I'd be dying by now it being the 3rd day and all but i'm good. I eat more meals a day and I feel great. Not only did I change my diet I decided to  chew my food till it mushy well you get tired of chewing, and your full, So far it works and I dont feel hungry throught the day. I havent tried on the dress but I dont want to just yet maybe friday i'll post it up to, So here are a few pictures of this last week or so enjoy. to be continued....


So its a week later and I did loose weight but in all the wrong places i mean yeah i lost weight but not around the bust middle back area. Anyways I did go to Jessica McClintock for a black and white dress I like it and it cost way more then the one I fell in love with.AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh I just tried the dress on I was going to take a picture of it but instead i tried it on and guess what i FIT..........................I am so stoked i worked so hard i'm cheesing so bad right now. okay well here are the photos

 SO happy

 The dress I bought from Jessica McClintock

The dress I fell in love with

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Behind the Scene

Talk about a busy schedule  I dont have time for anything these days and not in a bad way either. I don't have time to blog as much as I like. So here is the scoop if you haven't read about me from the begining. In the morning I work for Xotic Eye and at night I work for Supercuts monday thru friday and saturday nights. What little time I do have I enjoy doing photshoot. Guys!!!!!!!! Just got the video in from the behind the scenes video on a photoshoot I did for the Rock it like GaGa. Sorry random was checking my email and boom they linked the site in for me.I hope you enjoy the video as much as I did. Just so you know I was extremely nervous


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